Finally, i was able to cut off the ties. I found her mobile number, sent her an SMS in a sound context and left it at that, indefinitely. Not that i expect "mosters" to have any sort of guilt anyway, especially being the actress she's always been, but this will have to do. After that obviously, i am never contacting her, ever again; i won't even read any message she might send in response, if any.
And yet another milestone went by. Old me would have second thoughts, pathetically cling around her and beg (even cry), mistaking her latent interest and insistence, for genuine feelings. Honestly, i hate myself now, as i consider indifference, or even downright bad thoughts and ill-will against someone, especially someone you were close and share moments with, to be the absolute expression of base inhumanity akin to "betrayal" or something... But actually, i would hate myself even more, if i kept becoming the rug under everyone's feet.
I don't intend to become a "martyr" for ANYONE's sake. Especially for those little Judases. That, and some people's petty low bag of tricks, has run out by now. Let's see what I have in my bag. This will be interesting...
Also, i found the female lawyer who "Effed me up" some years ago, in the church, with her girlfriend-mate. Strange place for offenders of justice, hypocrites, freaks and victimizers of innocents (inocents already thrashed & abused by their supposed "victims" beforehand), to hang out... But i bet, after she got cancer on the "cushions", she suddenly became a religious person overnight. I am so going to have the very last laugh in this case; as well as finish what others started, years back!!!