A university student in my city, kick-boxing athlete too, committed suicide, due to love gone wrong... I remembered my own shitstorm, but in my case, kick-boxing university student abused/harmed me and not the opposite, which was the case in that poor girl's life... What ugly games does life, destiny and other people, play on the expense of good people who deserve better and instead, find themselves tortured from the very same people they get to fall in love with... I somehow felt something like being related to the girl and i got sad and angry.
WHY did that girl have to find herself broken at the hands of a bastard jerk?
WHY did I have to find myself broken at the hands of a bastard bitch?
WHY couldn't i meet a girl like her, all those years, to shower her with affection and love, instead of falling to people who murdered my dreams and caused me to mutate into a bastard myself?
WHY people who could match, almost never are meant to meet?
WHY the injustice?
WHY people have to suffer, instead of getting love, out of "love"-affairs?
I have no regrets of the vile deeds i was forced to bask in all this time, thanks to other people undoing my life and destroying my dreams. Heck, even my ill-gotten malice secretly wished that in her stead, it would be my ex instead, to pay up for her misdeeds against me. But despite my ugly feelings and cut out heart, i still feel sad and depressed over innocents paying and those deserving of such things, always escape unpunished, even prosper in their (un)lives, as well...
I may wish for justice, punishment, THE PLAGUE itself goddamnit to befall all the bastards in my place, because they are the lowliest, the worst, they even sell and mash their own kin out! But i never wished for innocents to pay up and i could never enjoy that, as other inhumans could and probably would... Coming out of me, but, today, another small piece of my faith to humanity, died... Good thing my heart is dead and all my dreams violently murdered, already, or else i would even cry while reading that in the news. Damn.
Post edited December 02, 2016 by KiNgBrAdLeY7