Damn it! Something was not right... She performed with me exactly how i performed, when i was with my sweety, down to the very last move, even expression (she copied my technique, my everything, even though i just met her this evening for the first time)... I feel like i should had skipped that "session". I have that premonition that either they know already, or they even designed that whole event... One does not simply hit on me and asks me out for s_x...
But then again, "others" told me to go to the devil and my sweety even, verbally assualted me, with a fake profile, on that other site... I tried my best to sway her, already... I played out every trick by the book, or of my own creation and still, no result. Why? My best efforts were wasted. And i continue "sliding" into rigged fields. But maybe, i didn't try enough? I shouldn't have dropped the ball so early? Prove my determination before giving up? I didn't want to be a bother and an eyesore to her; damn! And i got tired of shoving my own pride in my a$$, ridiculing my very own self, composure and integrity, for merely hoping to reach to the other side, all this time... And without the tiniest hint of a result, at that.
Yet, I don't like that. I feel like i made a mistake. First time i spent quality time and i feel bad about it and more importantly, UPSET! Smells like one of their regular traps. I don't like it. And her job was typical of the proffession ranges that those hypocritical hatemongers are into.
Post edited July 03, 2019 by KiNgBrAdLeY7