i used to go to a club before and got into a few activities, but nothing really stuck to me, as i said, it's really difficult making connections with anyone, and also, i wasn't humble bragging in any way, i just wanted to point out the situation why i feel lonely, and i'm aware other people have it worse, but it doesn't mean i'm happy about the situation either, as for the music, anything that's not depressive makes me angry, i can't stand listening to anything that doesn't fit my mood, i know other people are the opposite, but it's just how i am
Yeah, clubs... I really don't get what people want in there. And how to make connections when nobody understands a word the other is saying. ;)
You will always choose the music and other media that somehow reflects your individual mood or even personality. Nothing can be done about that. But you might find that as you get to know other people and their personalities, you'll warm to their music and stories too. So that other media isn't step one it's step two. The root of change and the road to change here is "new friends" to begin with. In my experience, "looking for friends" and "making friends" is a legend of the adult world. Friendships happen. And the only thing you can really "do" to make friends is to bring yourself in a situation in which you're not actively looking for the connection, but in which it can happen. Clubs are shit if they don't play your music. Go to places that play your music. Heck, learn an instrument then go looking for a band to play in. Or go to workshops that teach your hobby (or a hobby you'd like to have). Go to museums that show your kind of art. Get involved in the causes that are dear to your heart (my mom got all her guys from church. Juuuust browsed and plucked 'em). Visit the places you want to see. Treat yourself well, do things for yourself, do things in the outside world on your own initiative. Don't go "looking for friends", really. Make the experiences you want to make, and someone may actually want to join you. If nobody does, take pride and joy from having made the experiences you wanted to make.
Don't form your identity around 'being gloomy' and 'not having friends' (or worst of all, 'being unfucked'). It just fucks with the soul. Make sure you're more than that, even if and especially if you remain alone.