Called my grandma. even after telling her who i am, she couldn't remember me. alzheimers. and i have a childhood friend dying of a brain tumor. and a girl i like is leaving for great britain to move in with her new boyfriend. oh and some of my closest friends are scattered all over the country and are finding new friends completely forgetting about me.
i feel like im losing it. i have just told my parents, that im going to move out and wouldnt want to see them again.
where are my budgies when i need them. right, they are dead.
Patience, and iron will, buddy... Grit those teeth, yell out with your heart until you believe it: "THIS. IS. NOTHING. YOU COULD DO WORSE"! Then pause to catch a breath, and inspect carefully throughout the globe. Wars with daily casualties, Hunger, Dehydration, Terminal Diseases, Children abused/abducted/warring as if being adults... Ok, third world, you are gonna say. But "civilized" places have equal, if not stinkier, crap.
Loosing a friend, or being precise, a good friend loosing life. Now that terrible, honestly, and my sympathy at least. But it could be worse; like a friend you thought of being good, tries to frame you, hack you, doxx you, interfere in whatever it is you are doing and put you in prison, just because a relative who never loved you and never wanted you, payed him to...
Your GF moving away with a new !@#$? Gee, honestly, this is the least important thing on earth (from third time happening onwards, from experience talking, you feel nothing negative anymore)... It could be FAR, far worse, like your gf to have been engaged, tells you nothing, does everything with you, puts horns on your head with 4-5 other men from common workplace (who also have the audacity to make fun of you and describe her underwear to you in detail), then yells at you, makes scenes, turns you into the laughing stock of half a town while at the same time accuses you of abusing her AND people believe her (while you honestly loved her), THEN walks away with her betrothed, moves into a shitty suburban village, and grows fat on her hubby's sweat-earned work money. Now, look here, it could be EVEN worse than that, but carrying on would be pretty tiring... Besides, modern girls and YOUNGER girls, have a thing for passion, if you get what i mean. They are WAY more playful than girls your same age, and hunt experienced men like it's open season, if you show interest the "correct" way... Even for a fling. Actually, modern problem is always finding flings here and there, or light games, but no serious relationship with commitment; even if you DO want just that.
Elders forgetting, is really sad. Not because they literally "loose their life" (memories' and loved ones' wise), but they must be offered help and assistance (they forget to take care for themselves). Sad as is, there is no treatment. No use worrying over something you cannot change, correct? Also, this could be worse, too. Many elders with this problem, in my country, daily "get lost" and "disappear" (police announcements), and it really makes me very, very sad. Let alone the elder being crippled with another, physical condition (my grandma has Alzheimer and is paralyzed completely).
About closest friends, my advice, is to be HAPPY when they go away, and forget about you. No, i am not mad. This shows that they did not deserve the closeness you arbitrarily adorned them with. And puts you in no trouble. It could be FAR, FAR more worse. Like your closest friends deceiving you for years, hacking, doxxing, making you loose your job once or twice, putting constructed shit and dirt against your name secretly, even manipulating your personal info and impersonating you, to frame you legally. Just because they hated your mug while playing the good friend for many years. Or just because some shitty relatives paid them do all this, relatives who would prefer you dead or outcast.
Life can be a shitstorm, son. But one thing is certain. No one's burden is heavier than whatever it is he/she can lift. Be glad about hazards and hardships. They yield experience. They make us learn, remember, develop new skills, try this and that again with better handling and gains... They make us LOVE and HATE. They make us to feel, and be alive. They make us stronger, and offer new opportunities, they open more doors and perspectives for us. Sometimes, our entire world can collapse and be rebuild in a more realistic image, or in a way that will help us SURVIVE better and/or more happily. Even if you cannot turn your heart into stone, try to not bleed needlessly and senselessly off wounds (that could be much larger than those) you carry...