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AKA: Vent your spleen, Scream at the void or Post way too much personal information on the internet
Born of discussions in two recent forum threads, the point of this thread is to blow off steam about life problems in general. Does something terrify you, shit you to tears, depress you to the point where you run out of tears? Then this is the place to bitch about it, think of it as a cheaper alternative to visiting a shrink with the downside of not being able to get drugs or ogle cute receptionists. People are encouraged to offer advice, suggest distractions or just read and say to themselves "damn I'm glad my life doesn't suck that much"
I'll summarise my issues briefly since they're spelled out with more detail in those linked threads but this time my bitching comes with a bonus, its like a special edition of a game but you don't have to pay an extra $20 (though I won't knock it back) and you can actually get it for PC.
Bitch 1: 2 days ago I wrote an email that destroyed my hopes of a romantic relationship. This wasn't an accident but a grim acceptance of the fact that I'd clearly lost to another man. This was, as you can imagine, pretty fucked up but the real killer was that I lost not though my flawed actions or the fact that this other guy was better, I lost specifically because I couldn't afford to fly to Finland and be with her in person and this other guy was already there. I didn't even get a chance to TRY.
She simply couldn't be 100% sure about how she felt about me until we met in person which is quite understandable and the combination of the variables involved in my going and the fact it was going to be early 2011 at the earliest just made me too much of a risk (at least to my interpretation) so she seems to have settled for 'good' rather than take a chance on waiting for 'awesome'.
Bitch 2: This morning, I had 4 teeth pulled out before 9am. This was a planned medical procedure rather than a psycho bursting in on me with a pair of pliers but the end result is a hell of a lot of blood, swelling and a moderate amount of pain (less than I expected but then I imagine the really fun pain won't set in till I wake up tomorrow).
The teeth themselves were disgusting, the roots were compromised by an infection that got in when the other impacted teeth were colliding and when I looked at the damaged areas the closest thing I could describe them as was being like that fatty gristle and sinew you get in the joint of a leg of lamb only it was semi-dissolved bone. Lovely stuff. They asked if I wanted to keep the teeth and I did contemplate making them into a necklace, possibly offering it as a prize in the random community draw, but I decided against it. It's been more than 8 hours now and the bleeding is finally coming to a stop, most of my spit just tastes like blood rather than looks like it.
The real bastard of it is that I've got something similar to the itch you can't scratch when you have your arm in a cast, I now have a strong craving for pizza but the only thing I can have is soup and really soft foods and I am NOT getting out the blender and making a pizza shake
Bitch 3: One of the best friends I've ever had has recently gotten pregnant after months of trying, she was overjoyed about it and has talked about nothing else since she found out. This morning she was diagnosed with the dreaded swine flu and whilst its far from the next bubonic plague (I've known 3 people who've had it and they say its not quite as bad as the last flu they had) it does carry a higher than usual risk of miscarriage.
The doctors have just told her to go to the hospital and so she's understandably panicked. Given the fact that she's one of my best friends, this has sort of got me remarkably worried too.
All in all, its been a fun week of mental and physical anguish and its not over yet because I have to go to the unemployment office tomorrow and handle their bureaucratic bollocks or I won't have any money this fortnight.
Well thats my speen thoroughly vented, a void screamed at and internets accepting my personal information. Calling the next patient...
Let's not vent let's loooooooooooooooooooooooooove
Re "Bitch 1", long-distance relationships (especially those that span over countries) rarely work out. So as much as it's made you feel like shit; you did the right thing in my opinion. I've been there too, although in my case we actually met at university but she being an overseas student and only for 2 years -- along with a lot other drama (including schizo religous nut stalker type guy who actually tried to run me over) -- things were doomed to never work out.
And while I actually did make it to visit her in her country as well, there were still a fair few problems and it just got to the point where I had to realise it wasn't worth it. Then when I actually stopped worrying about finding "the right person" and all that, a chance encounter led my to the woman I eventually married; so some good came of it =) And I'm sure the same will happen to you too, when you least expect it.
WORK YOU FUCKING WDS-SERVER BASTARD! STUPID BANANA PXE-BOOT FAILING FUCK LAPTOP, YOU WORK TOO!
Oh you work now?
Then why the fuck won't you let me select image to install?
ARGLEBEH!
Rage.
Teeth: While I don't have Aliasalpha level teeth, a rotted wisdom tooth gets yanked out on September 2nd.
Work: Insert Grumble about how the three schools I work at are under funded, we are expected to loose a bank of PCs for students/classes (since apparently, we have too much space per # of people) yet support 145 new wireless laptops (on top of 280 PCs) that might really be slow crippled netbooks (And we will be pressured to run resource loving software on them). And another 145 or so in a years time, with not much chance of me getting fulltime work, and my co-worker and I going insane.
Politics: Arrrrghfftz-Conroy-rrrrghaghg-Fielding-hhpppprtrp-Rudd -- Australian Filter Madness.
Weight: Despite exercise and eating near zero junk, I'm still overweight. No longer obese, but random current-affairs show might use me as background belly fodder on one of their shows should I go to the city.
TV: Why would I even bother with you? Pop up adverts during the show, loud noisy adverts during the advert breaks, adverts during the credit sequences, oh, and er, barely any shows worth watching. So I don't have a TV.
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bansama: [snip] -- along with a lot other drama (including schizo religous nut stalker type guy who actually tried to run me over)

Please elaborate.
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Ois: So I don't have a TV.

But what about all of those awesome console games?!
As far as love goes, I've got feelings for a woman who is engaged, uninterested and interstate. Used to date, broke up, she got over it, I didn't.
Work wise, things were going well, got approached to do some art, then the project was scrapped. Something else came along, and that went no where too. So it's back to being poor.
Politics? I've convinced myself to stop watching the news so I don't worked up by the mess that is the Australian (hell, worldwide) political system.
Why should we help the corporations that bleed us dry?! Let them go fucking bankrupt, to hell with the consequences, I've got my shiny CD-slash-bulletproof vest Mad Max style!
As for religion.. Yeah, not touching that one. But I do hope the heads of most organised religions burn in their hell of choice.
And my knees, like, what the hell?! I'm only 27 and they hurt so bad. Ha! imagine if I was sportly, then I'd really be screwed.
The end.
EDIT: I forgot about doctors. I've been seeing a few for various problems, and it scares me that some of them are so incompetent, they shouldn't have the lives of others in their hands.
Post edited August 05, 2009 by Shalgroth
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Ois: So I don't have a TV.
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Shalgroth: But what about all of those awesome console games?!

They were all made a decade ago or more! :) Thought about setting up the old spare just for the machines I have, or getting a convert to send the signal to my PC monitor. Not much luck I'll have waiting for a GOG styled site for retro console gaming on the PC.
Honestly, there are maybe one or two flashy console titles I would buy. The rest have a PC equivalent, and my PC space is far more comfy and does not have the distractions of others. The cost of a console and those games is... eh, not something I can stomach.
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Ois: They were all made a decade ago or more! :) Thought about setting up the old spare just for the machines I have, or getting a convert to send the signal to my PC monitor. Not much luck I'll have waiting for a GOG styled site for retro console gaming on the PC.
Honestly, there are maybe one or two flashy console titles I would buy. The rest have a PC equivalent, and my PC space is far more comfy and does not have the distractions of others. The cost of a console and those games is... eh, not something I can stomach.

I've been wanting to find a way of connecting my PS3 to the PC too. I used to be a huge console gamer, but like you, I've found my PC area to be a lot more comfortable. And there's just so much more that you can do with a PC.
I can't remember the name of the adaptor, but there's an accessory out there (eBay) that you can use to plug certain consoles up to your monitor, if you're the unlucky kind (like me) who still uses a CRT.
Apparently that adaptor suffers from a few latency issues, which is the main reason I haven't bought one yet.
I should just shell out for a decent LCD.
You Could look at TV Capture Cards Because with the one I have a VCR (Videotapes) Connected to it and through Red, yellow and White Plugs You Can Connect your Consoles
They come in External and Internal Variants as well
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TV_tuner_card
Post edited August 05, 2009 by Master911
i just lost a design drawing i've spend 3hours drawing on.
So lets say poligtly :
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Holy crap, September/August have been hell for you Aliasalpha, I'd forgotten about your teeth being pulled too.
The only thing I can think to rage about is eBay related stuff, because I'm constantly having issues; but they're kinda boring in comparison.
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Ois: Teeth: While I don't have Aliasalpha level teeth, a rotted wisdom tooth gets yanked out on September 2nd.

As long as its not too deeply rooted it won't be so bad, my ones popped out with only a minimum of "maybe he should just use a hammer" force, the sound was a bit uncomfortable (worse in the upper jaw since it can conduct sound to the ear) but other than that it wasn't as bad as I was expecting, especially surprising is the relative lack of pain though as I said, I imagine I'll be saying something different in the morning.
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Ois: Work: Insert Grumble about how the three schools I work at are under funded, we are expected to loose a bank of PCs for students/classes (since apparently, we have too much space per # of people) yet support 145 new wireless laptops (on top of 280 PCs) that might really be slow crippled netbooks (And we will be pressured to run resource loving software on them). And another 145 or so in a years time, with not much chance of me getting fulltime work, and my co-worker and I going insane.
Is that Laptops 4 Learning? If you ever see who's in charge of hiring, set their car on fire for me would you. They didn't even bother to tell me to get stuffed and it was the best application I'd ever written.
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Ois: Weight: Despite exercise and eating near zero junk, I'm still overweight. No longer obese, but random current-affairs show might use me as background belly fodder on one of their shows should I go to the city.

What sort of exercise? A personal trainer might be the go if you can afford it, its done wonders for me. Had I been going to the gym on my own I'd have done too much, hurt myself and given up but now I'm pissed because approval for my next membership hasn't come through (my job network lot are paying for it if they can ever be fucked to agree, they've been booking me driving lessons "later this week" for more than a year now). 30 minutes of PT at the gym 3 times a week has made a major difference to me
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Ois: TV: Why would I even bother with you? Pop up adverts during the show, loud noisy adverts during the advert breaks, adverts during the credit sequences, oh, and er, barely any shows worth watching. So I don't have a TV.

I have a TV but its antenna port is still a virgin. I.ve only got it for my media PC and my xbox 360 (what flashy console games are you vageuly interested in, might be able to do some coop)
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Romulus: Holy crap, September/August have been hell for you Aliasalpha, I'd forgotten about your teeth being pulled too.

Never rains but it pours. In truth the emotional isses yesterday were something of a help. I managed to survive that and reach a somewhat zen state where I had no idea what the hell was going on but I was just going to sit back and see what happened. That near meditative (or perhaps it could be described as an emotional retreat) state actually helped when I was on the chair & under the small pointy pliers. I can now say with some accuracy that losing the love of your life is DEFINIETLY worse than getting your teeth pulled.
Post edited August 05, 2009 by Aliasalpha
ONE! Despite me being more proactive with the self-promo, and despite busting my balls to create the actual content, my website abjectly refuses to find an audience, and I'm starting to think perhaps there just isn't one. I knew it was esoteric as fuck, but it seems that I may have underestimated the esoterism of fuck.
TWO! I can foresee no possible turn of events by which I will ever again know the touch of a woman. This is not new, but the annoying part is that this time last year I was cool with this - after nigh on 26 years of being single in every way possible, I had just accepted that relationships weren't going to be a part of my life. And then at the end of last year I fell into a relationship. A stupidly short and pointless one. Reflecting, the only purpose those few months served was to take away my cool - I am once again back to believing that relationships are not going to be a part of my life, except now I am totally not cool with it. In fact it eats me up for about 75% of my waking hours, and is almost certain to turn me into Bill Dauterive.
THREE! Is it really necessary for me to still have to put up with pimples at 26? I mean, I'm grateful that they've never been especially bad, but it's enough already. I'm closer to middle-aged than I am to teenaged, so just give it a rest, will you? Thanks.
See, I like these threads. Not for the opportunity to vent, but because putting my annoyances into words makes them seem petty, which dulls their edge. Hooray!
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Ois: Teeth: While I don't have Aliasalpha level teeth, a rotted wisdom tooth gets yanked out on September 2nd.
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Aliasalpha: As long as its not too deeply rooted it won't be so bad, my ones popped out with only a minimum of "maybe he should just use a hammer" force, the sound was a bit uncomfortable (worse in the upper jaw since it can conduct sound to the ear) but other than that it wasn't as bad as I was expecting, especially surprising is the relative lack of pain though as I said, I imagine I'll be saying something different in the morning.

Thankfully, the one to go is pretty much sitting in my jaw (top one), though it is covered by a fair bit of flesh and bone apparently.
I once had a biopsy, where marks from my upper pallet were removed. Having this pulled should be bliss in comparison to the recovery from that event.
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Aliasalpha: Is that Laptops 4 Learning? If you ever see who's in charge of hiring, set their car on fire for me would you. They didn't even bother to tell me to get stuffed and it was the best application I'd ever written.

It's part of the DER (Digital Education Revolution). The initial idea was to give schools a 1:1 ratio for PC/Student. Then a 2:1. Then a 2:1 for year 9 and up. Then a 1:1 for year 9 and up. No funding for infrastructure all the way to this point. Then, after much protests, more money to upgrade the network/cabling/servers/etc.
It will standardise a few things, but it's not going to happen like the magic they say it will. If your willing to work in public education for ICT, I would expect quite a few openings to happen in the next year.
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Ois: Weight: Despite exercise and eating near zero junk, I'm still overweight. No longer obese, but random current-affairs show might use me as background belly fodder on one of their shows should I go to the city.
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Aliasalpha: What sort of exercise? A personal trainer might be the go if you can afford it, its done wonders for me. Had I been going to the gym on my own I'd have done too much, hurt myself and given up but now I'm pissed because approval for my next membership hasn't come through (my job network lot are paying for it if they can ever be fucked to agree, they've been booking me driving lessons "later this week" for more than a year now). 30 minutes of PT at the gym 3 times a week has made a major difference to me.

Not a lot: At least 10 Kilometres on an exercise bike (every 3rd day), and I lift weights while I'm slothing at the PC. I used to have a proper weight/bench set, but there is no longer the space.
I've dropped 14 kilos (10-12 weeks or so) from that method, but I've plateau off on what I can do with what I know & have.
The Gym annoys me, as attempts in the past to use them have shown instructors/trainers use an 'aggressive' personality/prompting to get you to do stuff. The last time I *was* there, I politely told them to stop yelling and walked home.
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Ois: TV: Why would I even bother with you? Pop up adverts during the show, loud noisy adverts during the advert breaks, adverts during the credit sequences, oh, and er, barely any shows worth watching. So I don't have a TV.
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Aliasalpha: I have a TV but its antenna port is still a virgin. I've only got it for my media PC and my xbox 360 (what flashy console games are you vaguely interested in, might be able to do some coop)

Don't quite know to be honest. Since I don't have any recent system, I've not been keeping up, aside from the occasional disappointment when a title goes console-A exclusive or a PC focus is not on the plans.
Certain to be those out there, but I can't name one off by hand. Always up for some coop if I had a system and matching games.
Post edited August 05, 2009 by Ois