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I saw a baby's arm on my pillow when I woke up this morning. When I tried to grab it is disappeared.
In the last few months I have been hearing people talking or music, plugging my ears did not make it stop so I know it's all in my head.

I'll report those thing next time I see the professionals I'm seeing (doctor and social worker).

Things could be worst, I'm a very rational person and an Atheist so I do not believe those experiences have anything to do with paranormal activities or mind control experiments. I do wish I was born in an era where psychiatry was an exact science and some kind of scanner could find what it wrong with my brain and correct it.
I don't post in this thread for myself because so many other people seem to have larger, more looming issues. Sometimes though, everything just piles up and you can't keep it buried. I'm not happy with my life and not sure how to change that, it's a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I tell myself at least I have a roof over my head and can afford to eat regularly(if I'm honest, too regularly)and have access to healthcare again, a tidy backlog of games, and a family I mostly get along with, but I've got the self-confidence of a hobbit going into a dragon's cave and am convinced that people don't really like me at all, they either tolerate me, I have something they want, or else they just are too kind to say otherwise. Doesn't really matter where, online or in real life, it's all the same. I'm on anxiety meds and blood pressure meds, but they only help in minimal ways.

“We don’t even ask happiness, just a little less pain.”
― Charles Bukowski
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Ragnarblackmane: .....but I've got the self-confidence of a hobbit going into a dragon's cave and am convinced that people don't really like me at all, they either tolerate me, I have something they want, or else they just are too kind to say otherwise. Doesn't really matter where, online or in real life, it's all the same. I'm on anxiety meds and blood pressure meds, but they only help in minimal ways.
You know all to well that you have people that like you and appreciate you. There is one person right here for example who likes you (me). I don't just tolerated you, you have nothing I want (except the pleasure of your company for our lovely chats), and although I like to think I'm a kind person, I am not just being your friend to be kind. I genuinely appreciate you and it has been a pleasure getting to know you. I am always here if you need someone to chat to, even though I'm probably not the most helpful person.

P.S. I know it's not a funny subject, but your Hobbit reference made me smile.
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ddickinson: You know all to well that you have people that like you and appreciate you. There is one person right here for example who likes you (me). I don't just tolerated you, you have nothing I want (except the pleasure of your company for our lovely chats), and although I like to think I'm a kind person, I am not just being your friend to be kind. I genuinely appreciate you and it has been a pleasure getting to know you. I am always here if you need someone to chat to, even though I'm probably not the most helpful person.

P.S. I know it's not a funny subject, but your Hobbit reference made me smile.
I appreciate that, I truly do, I just know that all of my problems are brought about by my own actions and I've none to blame for feeling this way but myself. I need to get over it, basically.