Too many people around me are dying. I'm getting really tired of this. It is my incredibly friendly neighbour this time. his children are assholes and left him alone because they did not want to be bothered by that old man and since his wife passed away, he didn't have anyone. he would always be thrilled to bits when i said things like hello or good day. we would talk for a while and i would move on. i got annoyed by it the last few months since he could talk all day long. well now he is dead and i already miss his childhood stories. And my friend's condition is worseniung he has a brain tumor and it doesn't all look too well. he once came over in tears and told me he doesnt want to die. he is a bit panicking right now. i'm not proud of it but im beginning to develop a "f*** it" attitude towards such things.