Sending you some virtual Momo {{hugs}} and positive thoughts.

~depression really sucks. meds have helped me in the past. venting also helped - so thanks for doing this and don't stop if it helps you. ~

Replying directly in the hopes that you come back to this thread and let us know how you're feeling, now that you've had some time since your original vent/post.

We're here for you in spirit, buddy.

Don't apologize, and... bonne chance!

Thank, that's a very nice take on things.

Check your PM <3

for every answer we find, we reveal even more questions. as we explore into both the microscopic and macroscopic we unveil the infinite fractality of the universe--always leaving more the be discovered, invented, created. we are part of an infinite orchestra of creation. The stars create carbon and we turn that carbon into drawings and words, things that would never exist without our hand. it's easy to feel insignificant but, when something is infinite scale holds little relevance.

Hey, this sound almost exactly like my personal philosophy! I've essentially replaced any need for validation acquired through fealty to some archaic sky god or another with simple wonder and marvel at the universe itself. The Infinite Engine that spirals all around us is all the belief in something greater I need.

Of course, that's only until the universe enters cryostatic equilibrium, and then we're all f***ed.

Ha! In the billions of years until we redshift our way into to the big freeze, if we don't come up with some way to jump ship on our universe than I guess we're just gonna have to bite that bullet. Heck, it'd be a testament to our species if we last long enough to deal with our sun going all red giant.

Thanks everyone for your kind words, I wasn't expecting anything like this at all, it's hard for me to read so many positive messages and to know that some of you actually are going through a similar situation and that this thread helped to open up for some of you
It's hard also to reply on this thread right now but I feel that it will help me out if I do so, sorry if I didnt reply any pm I will eventually(and will pm about some things that i dont want to post on this thread), I promise.

Last night I slept many hours and yet I still feel very tired today, I kept dreaming about a life that I wish to happen and soundly I woke up, that happened all night long.

Maybe it will sound silly but the game was like the song of Roberta Flack, killing me softly, it made me revive things in my life that they were forgotten or though I thought, like when I was able to do and enjoy things that now I can't, the time that my ex girlfriend left me because of my condition, friends or even my mom, it was like the big wave I told about but I was reading it and didn't have a clue that was affecting me in such hard and deep way until yesterday that finally hit me, maybe it's for the best and from here all I can do is get better, I don't know, I never got this down or depressed before.

Right now I'm trying to stay positive, again thanks a lot for all the support!

You are much wiser and more intelligent than your husband, EvilRonaldReagan :)

Ol' Ronnie? He was just my piece on the side, we usually just called him Ronald Reagan though, for brevity's sake.

Just bought and started up AI war... and... the music stopped me...

Maybe you'd like to listen to it...?