Not being banned at Steam is good. As my first day there they threatened me with a ban and I never posted there again and since have abandoned my account. Some people here have told you not to ask about personal problems via the internet as it isn't a Doctor and they are correct, do not use the internet for illnesses or aid or personal problems.

but how can i talk to doctor about my activity on some forum which he'll never bother to check?.. look i'll give u some clear examples of how i think.. if i get warned that there's definitely problems with my mental, if i get to believe that it's true, only then i'll go to doctor.

look at this thread...

www.gog.com/forum/general/i_finished_pathfinder_kingmaker_a_must_buy/page1

here there's this female beatrice, she said that she finished a game, then kai2 comes and asks details.. but when kai2 talks to beatrice, he always makes effort to be formal.. respectful.. to the point where the conversation just isn't natural anymore. for me that kind of attitude is fake and even disgusting. it's like he'd write a letter to his boss as respectul as possible for fear that he might fire him at his leisure.. once i met a polish girl laura in tera online, and when she gave me her facebook and we talked there, she sounded exactly like kai2.. totally respectul and unnatural.. i found that so horrible but i pretend like it didn't bother me.. we continued the conversation, and i don't remember what exactly i wrote, but she suddenly blocked me.. i didn't even have time to say f*** ur a$$.. she did so probably because i don't have friends on facebook so i'm loser and she really had no interest in me. this laura.. she wasn't an adult back then, just a teenager. so it's not like i'd talk to a business woman or a politician who's always formal and unnatural. whenever i try to make a friend like game rager, or a guy from war thunder, one of the first things i ask them is this - if i say something wrong, if i annoy u etc, then please warn me.. let's talk about it and don't suddely block me without even telling me why. i never act fake to people and i ask that others don't do that to me either. also i wrote another stupid thread and i just asked for advice about writing stupid game guides which i'll just give up anyway. and a guy comes and simply tells me what to do. and i say "ok man i got it thanks". but i really meant those words, i was sincere ok? i don't just copy paste crap from a text file

so does this mean i'm anti social or personality disorder?..

Just give this some thought.

Go get actual help

Just talk to a Medical Expert and STOP asking in a forum.

I have no idea if this is a joke or it's troubled AI... I'm thinking you're thinking to much, so you really should stop thinking too much around your behavior/thinking. The more you think about something the more obsessed and stuck you become.

For all we know you really are anti-social or have hyperkinetic disorder, or are prone to being obsessive compulsive, is depressed, or is just an attention seeker. Often they all go hand in hand so find out at you local specialist for more information, now.

Too many are worrying too much about not being social and fears it. Being anti-social bring alot of stigma in our society, but it don't necessary mean lack of either sympathy or empathy (or both). And, from some who is anti social, no matter what everybody says - it's ok to be anti-social!. There are many reasons as to why some chooses to be anti-social.

Unless it actually threatens your and others life/health that is ;)

Video is related... o.O

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbJJ4oOZOXs

Hi there, this is cute that you came to gamers with your insane inside. Personally I do not really trust people who do not play games. I think even my psychologist, Catherine from Ukraine, based in UK, played some video games and won my trust. Thought me two, absolutely important things, (She tried to thought me more, like relaxation/breathing techniques and stress management, rspct Cath it was helpful, but I remember this most) and I am serious now:

1. There are no normal people, only undiagnosed, as nobody is perfect, even psychologists. It is just, people are chaotic or overthinkers or else. Don't blame yourself and try to cooperate with this actively.

2. Most of mental health issues comes from stress. If you experienced too much stress in your life you became nutter. (she used more official terminology^)

3. From myself, get strong hobby it does help.

Free thought, You can be anyone they said, so I choose to be nobody, as nobody is perfect, soul is perfect, do what you want and want what you do. Life is a privilege it's true.

When I was studying philosophy for two years, logic was my weakest side, but I excelled in ethic, aesthetic, ancient philosophy, psychology and sociology. I was smart back then. Now I'm happy.

You are somehow brave to be that open, you will met lot of laugh and be considered as crazy. People tend to be very secured, ready to defend and fight for what they believe in.
Please do not judge yourself based on it, please use your extraordinary analytical mind to discover something... in life, in game, in yourself...

We are one organism, just different parts.

music always helps (donno if that is right music, I like it)
https://youtu.be/j8z7UjET1Is Baby shark
https://youtu.be/agAvAAv8FrU Trøllabundin
https://youtu.be/zqdBzHH47XA Overthinker
https://youtu.be/9RMHHwJ9Eqk Dream vs reality
https://youtu.be/MQlJ3vOp6nI Use coconut oil everywhere ^)
https://youtu.be/sKZJdDJrA1I Like a river
https://youtu.be/6WIfK-_WbTM Galactic Mantra
https://youtu.be/onHr2GhP6Pk Poi dance
https://youtu.be/70b6lsCUZFQ Jugni ji
https://youtu.be/oimZGOonbWU Anatolia
https://youtu.be/9FC_gYJY1sU I do what I want
https://youtu.be/5TyCzmGb_EI Twisted
https://youtu.be/L_LUpnjgPso Fireplace

fish and peace ^

more tune ?

Eh, why not? As long as people stay civil and within the rules/their own threads while doing so I don't see the problem.....this IS the general forum, after all, and no one has to read any specific threads here.

(Note I post this partially based one not knowing what it said, as by now OP removed it)
====================================================== He likely does & I agree....still, some talking to others here and there(within reason/etc) can help as well to relieve some such "weight" off of some such people's shoulders.

(Of course he should keep it to one thread or PM with those who want to discuss such only)
===================================================== Agreed on all bits but this.....I was mildly depressed in the past but talking online with some helped me relieve some of that and also some stress as well. Yes it won't work for everyone & for some the net might be worse for them, but for some it can help...especially if one cannot socialize irl for some reason. :)
===================================================== To be clear he didn't alienate me....I am more than willing to lend an ear to him when need be to be of some small comfort, but he sometimes seems to jump to conclusions if not replied to fast enough via PM/etc.
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It's not "fake" to post nicely to people....it's showing kindness to others & people do it here out of respect and to keep the forum nice and civil(like a library or church). One can always vent their more uncivil words if need be via PM(if a person allows it and it's not too rude), or elsewhere, if need be.

Also yeah, if you find talking nice to people to be polite to be disgusting you likely have those disorders & should seek out some help.

(Though to be fair you're not the first i've seen online with those disorders or traits)

In fairness there is something that feels unnatural if one is overly friendly and treats many statements as if they're dealing with a deadly weapon apologizing and fumbling the whole time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhIIPbO_6xg

You can do it a bit yourself. It can be a bit irritating to me... but it's not a big deal. I feel it's something a person does if they feel insecure or have some sort of social awkwardness and are overly worried about being perceived as offensive.

I do it for 3 reasons primarily/mostly:

I want to be nice to those who deserve nice treatment(those who are civil or who take the time to reply in depth and not too rudely, even those I disagree with a bit).

I want to avoid mods saying someone complained I was overly rude/trolling and get yet another "leave" over it......so sometimes even when I want to be more blunt/hard edged I hold back a bit...my words are usually near 100% truthful, though, despite that(And I offer to take other stuff to PM if need be sometimes).

To stop the ones who said I was too blunt/abrasive from complaining.
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But I can't win with everyone it seems.....I am only blunt when need be and civil most of the time when I think it calls for it and instead of complaining about me being overly blunt/rude some call me passive aggressive/deceptive and/or seem to think i'm that way.

As such I let them think as they will....if I couldn't change their opinions by all the concessions I made over the last few months I likely won't do it anytime soon.

(Also thanks for being understanding....some seem to think i'm hiding a troll mask or the rudest/worst person on the forums by the way they describe me sometimes, so it's nice to hear someone actually take the time to get to understand me.)

https://www.7cups.com/

https://freeonlinetherapy.org/

https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/therapy/get-free-online-therapy-should-you-use-free-counseling/

If you're having personal issues and you're aware enough to understand you have issues then I suggest therapy. The stigma of "you need to be crazy to see a therapist" is complete bullcrap. All they are is a neutral third party that will listen to you and help you talk through things in your life. They'll point out things that maybe you've overlooked or don't realise and help you work through them.

Seriously, if you want to better yourself or overcome an issue in your life then therapy will help. And it's not like it's forever. Once you feel you're in a better place and have dealt with the issues you have then you can stop going to therapy. It's voluntary and up to you to make yourself better. They're just there to help you and have had the training and experience to help you help yourself.

Good luck