Posted on: April 9, 2023

kellbengal
Verified ownerGames: Reviews: 4
Not the experience I was expecting
Please excuse me for a moment, I'm going to get a little personal. I never had a family that supported me growing up; I was bullied at school and at home and love was not a concept I understood. I had a difficult life and I retreated into computer games and books to escape the world. I picked up this game figuring it would be a decent sequel to X-wing which I had enjoyed and thus a reasonable distraction for a while. What I did not expect to find was an in-depth story with characters who formed a real family, with bonds that mattered. They affectionately call you, as the youngest Azzameen, "ace" and it's obvious that they want to keep you safe, but also let you spread your wings and help grow the family business. They cared for each other. They cared for -you-. At a time in my life when the idea of being loved by anyone was almost incomprehensible, and to suddenly be immersed in a world where the characters treated each other with love and respect was revolutionary. Was this was families could be like? When the family's fortunes changed and cracks began to form, I felt a genuine wrenching of my emotions. I had come to care for these characters as much as they cared for the character I was playing. The writing had helped me - an isolated and emotionally stunted young person - learn to form bonds and feel like I could be worthy of love. While you might think that this was simply the experience of a broken and traumatised soul, I must give credit to the writers. I've played many other games with families and supposedly representing all the bonds you'd expect... but this one managed to sell it. It made me invest and it made me feel. The characters, the writing, the way the world was written - it moved me in a way countless other games never had. I won't say that X-Wing Alliance saved my life, but it had a profound impact on me. It set me on a path to realising that fundamentally it was my family that was broken, and not my fault. Thank you, LucasArts.
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