Posted March 02, 2014
okay, so I beat the game a few days ago, and this has been niggling at me ever since. But first before I share my idea I'd like to get a little personal and explain part of why the ending had such impact on me. I have Hypermobility syndrome and Fibromyalgia, and three days ago one of the vertebra of my spine in my neck dislocated and twisted to the left, and it was causing me a LOT of pain. That pain was just radiating out into the rest of me, like the echo of a lie, and I was starting to feel disparaged, I was fearing a downward spiral, my greatest fear of all is becoming bedridden.
I played through the game, and when it turned out the eye of adam was totally physically disabled, it REALLY struck home for me hard. so far I have only seen the one ending, gave the mask to mitzi, blew out the left candle, talked her out of it, so I don't know how much what susan says at the ending changes, but for me she spoke of having a bad day, where you feel like your back in the past and all of the good things never even happened, and I got really choked up because of my dislocation, and then when she said I'll just have to go on living with this "invisible illness" I just lost it and started bawling, because fibromyalgia patients often refer to it as the invisible illness because people think we look unbroken therefor we should just get over it. I thought about it for a long time but I felt I needed to share this with anyone who would take the time to read my thoughts.
Onto the point of this, the entire time during the eye of adam segment, every time the options would come up I would think "But I want to talk her into gouging out his eyes!". I mean really I think mitzi would find that preferable to both leaving him unharmed and to blowing all three of them up in one of his suicide pacts. Not only does it take away his control and his communication method, but he can never regain it, he will become a mind trapped in a stone shell, praying for death knowing it will never come. If it were me, I'd take great pleasure sitting down on his lap and leaning in to whisper in his ear just how he was going to spend the rest of eternity alive, trapped, by himself, worthless, useless, helpless. Then I'd put my thumbs into his sockets and slowly press till they popped, seems a far more befitting punishment to me, and I think it would be just freaking awesome and really match the visuals/horror of the game. Anyway, now that I have finally said my piece I'm off to play it again for another ending.
I played through the game, and when it turned out the eye of adam was totally physically disabled, it REALLY struck home for me hard. so far I have only seen the one ending, gave the mask to mitzi, blew out the left candle, talked her out of it, so I don't know how much what susan says at the ending changes, but for me she spoke of having a bad day, where you feel like your back in the past and all of the good things never even happened, and I got really choked up because of my dislocation, and then when she said I'll just have to go on living with this "invisible illness" I just lost it and started bawling, because fibromyalgia patients often refer to it as the invisible illness because people think we look unbroken therefor we should just get over it. I thought about it for a long time but I felt I needed to share this with anyone who would take the time to read my thoughts.
Onto the point of this, the entire time during the eye of adam segment, every time the options would come up I would think "But I want to talk her into gouging out his eyes!". I mean really I think mitzi would find that preferable to both leaving him unharmed and to blowing all three of them up in one of his suicide pacts. Not only does it take away his control and his communication method, but he can never regain it, he will become a mind trapped in a stone shell, praying for death knowing it will never come. If it were me, I'd take great pleasure sitting down on his lap and leaning in to whisper in his ear just how he was going to spend the rest of eternity alive, trapped, by himself, worthless, useless, helpless. Then I'd put my thumbs into his sockets and slowly press till they popped, seems a far more befitting punishment to me, and I think it would be just freaking awesome and really match the visuals/horror of the game. Anyway, now that I have finally said my piece I'm off to play it again for another ending.