In a similar vein, if I could do exactly this job but have 80% of my customers within, say, one hour of home... job perfection for me.

Hmm.. I guess it depends on the place or environment..one where people actually cared about their jobs and had standards and listen to your view/opinions on things. I know, there will never be a "perfect" place to work because we are all different, but like I said, One can dream!

Your damn right My life has been one Horror show after the other, No wonder I feel Like I've been around since the dawn of creation!

I feel like I'm in District 12. I'm oppressed like Katniss, by The Man.

Oppressed I say.

Being still alive. Waking up in a world where there's war in Syria, where terrorists kill people, where people fleeing from those terrorists are unwelcome in the lands they flee to, where gay people among the refugees - people who fled to safety - aren't safe and in danger of life and limbs from their fellow refugees. Waking up in a world where in Nigeria terrorists eradicate whole villages. Waking up in a world where - first world problems - your privacy isn't safe because Google, Microsoft and other companies spy on you. Where you have to be careful what you do on the internet as every day criminals are out there trying to scam you, hack accounts, steal your money. Waking up in a world where livestock is mass-produced with disregard for their wellbeing, slaughtered and sold as 'kiloknallers' (cheap meat in the supermarket). Waking up in a world that's heating up more and more, where we only had 1 day of real winter this year, where the oceans are filled with plastic soups and there's lot of places in the ocean that are dead zones because of our pollution. And with this I only scraped the surface of what's wrong with this world. And I wake up for another day in this living hell.

You have to accept the chaos as part of the experience. Darkness is as valid as the light, it's only your perspective.

Being a fan of a game, or of its universe, sucks. Because you are lured to buy the game blindly. Well, i ALWAYS *hated* steam. I always *hated* preorders for ANY game, first exception i made was for Witcher 3 and thankfully, it had been more than well worth it. There are signs to tell that a game is going to be a disaster... Like priority for consoles... Absence of demo... And developers' lies, of course: a) This was made first for pc then ported to consoles b) it is going to have 60 FPS ETC.

Well, FAQ them! I spent a fortune in preordering and i got preordered season pass too, not only i was a fan of that game's universe but i promised this game to my nephew and niece, too! God damn it, thankfully Steam refund works! That game was a CLUNKY, BROKEN, MALFUNCTIONING, FULL OF ERRORS, COMPLETELY WITHOUT OPTIMIZATION AND EXISTENCE OF SETTINGS/OPTIONS TAB ENTIRELY ALTOGETHER, A SHITTY CONSOLE PORT, FULL OF ISSUES, FPS DROPS and worst of all, MOST of its problems, are GAME LAUNCHING ISSUES! Its requirements are quite lower than the witcher 3 too, which i can run just FINE!

Unacceptable! Had those people been professionals in the market on ANY other goods other than pc games, now they would face trial or even serving JAIL time! They are CROOKS, LIARS and release a broken piece of SH*T, even though people trusted in them and payed upfront, from a long time ago and wasted MONTHS watching the development news and cycle of the game! FAQ them!

Now that this is out of the way, i permanently uninstall steam, i swear to all 8.000.000 kamis and okamis that i will NEVER AGAIN in the remaining span of my life preorder ANYTHING ever again and obviously, skip games that have console versions altogether, unless it is developed from CDPR.

Thank you for your reply. It's a sad thing about autistic spectrum disorder, that autistic people have special preoccupations that they can't get rid of. My preoccupation is the unjustice and unsustainability of the world. However, when I phoned my mom with the 'bad news' (my perspective, not hers) that I'm still alive, she cheered me up with this story of people doing well for strangers in the everyday world close by.

*edit: and that made me happy for now.

Little energy and very scared today. Only found the energy and courage to take a shower and get dressed at 14:00. After that, I had to recover from the effort.

Furnace broken.

Achievement Unlocked: The Cold Shoulder!

It's 11 degrees here. :P

Uff da!

Damn hometown church is on to me, and they're starting to notice I never attend services anymore (they called me today for the 2nd time). I'd tell them directly to leave me alone, but my still goes there religiously, and I'm afraid that me leaving the church will put some heat on to her. In fact I know it will.
I'm going to have to think carefully about how to disappear from their radar without causing a fuss. It's kinda scary sometimes how cult like the whole setup can be.

Man, just go to church already, it is a very serene place, perfect for meditation! It also has boobies and first rate girls there, dressed in the latest word of the fashion world!

Hell, even the saints and Christ are drawn weaving "mudras" (hand signs, finger signs) with one hand. Christians stole MANY things from others, including "Silkworm". Or rosario, which is a cheap rip-off of the Buddhistic "mala". Or the holy ghost, depicted as a pigeon, rip-off of the secret legend of the now extinct Tong Jug Yoga, which is transmigration of soul to other bodies through animals, pigeon the most preferred avatar among them.