I am just going through a bad phase I guess. But no, I ain't giving up - just not yet. I have been through worse anyway...I just need to focus somehow.
Everything pretty much sucks today. My job is meandering of a straight path right down to hell and I am staring at the goddam depths of the abyss - Nothing seems to working out and my story looks like an absolute piece of crap - the problem is that I know it's a piece of crap and I can't seem to do anything about it- I just can't seem to get the damned quotes for my article coz everyone's acting like an arrogant snob and I don't seem to have any confidence anymore - Just wanna go home, take a nap and play baldur's gate or something.The thing is that this is my dream job and I am screwing it up since I can't seem to talk to people..everyone presumes that I am a moron or something since I can't seem to apply myself. I could work for a magazine on computers and gaming, that would be fine but I just can't seem to get the hang of my current beat that's on plastics and polymers - that stuff just seems to annoy me...Moreover I have always been a bit of a rebel so like when someone tells me to do something, I do the exact opposite - it's just the way I am - I don't like work well under authority but that's screwing me up...I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me...my colleagues hate me too and I am pretty much friggin' ostracized by everyone at the moment - I think it's all funny though, bloddy hillarious if you ask me since I am now like friggin' parody or something...I don't even know whom I should consult and that's why I am asking random folk on the internet for advice. The whole situation has me pretty sick to the stomach and I really wanna go puke or something.
I've been there mate. 7 years ago, I started my job in a printing office - not my dream job since I wanted something more creative but I still got to use the same software so didn't "lose my edge" so to speak. Thing is, my colleagues were draining the life out of me. One woman basically treated me like shit because she feared I'd take her job (and I did later on, to be fair) and she basically riled three other woman up against me. I was very liked by the male colleagues and the women who weren't in my office (which proved that this one jealous colleague was the cause) except for one male colleague who was my superior and would boss me around and treat me like shit. Even the boss didn't have any authority over him since this guy was hired in a deal between a customer and him (this guy was the son of a big chief in a very big Belgian oil company).
Things got better though once that one woman was fired - I got more respect (except by that one guy still, because he felt threatened by me) and in the end, even though the company went bankrupt a few months back, they still call me for help and help me out in turn.
Basically, don't give up - things can change and it's often just a few things that cause people to act the way they do. I know, it's very hard to speak out when you lack the confidence or when you know people will be extra judgemental of what you have to say. It's a game of patience I guess - but either you need to sit it out or find another job.
Resumes are bull****. Recruiters are ***wipes.
If you mean recruiters as in temp agencies (that's what we call them here though they aren't temp at all) and the like, then they're the worst thing to happen to the job market in the past 100 years. They greatly pollute the economy and severely leech off everyone involved.
Companies go to them because
a) it's easy to fire someone and quick to hire someone so limited risk
b) they have a large database of people to contact for jobs
c) there's loads of them so more chance of finding someone
On the other hand, employees get used like cattle - given false promises, you can get fired at the end of the week without any reason given, it's a lot harder to get a full term contract, it's loads of extra paperwork, if anything is wrong, they give zero help.
I got a new job now but dear LORD, the two months I was at home was enough to make me hate them even more than I already did. I got over 30 calls from temp agencies in less than a week and they all promised jobs that weren't true, already taken or nothing like what I put on my resume <.< .