Posted February 26, 2017
Grrr. Where to begin...
First, i decided to go somewhere and have fun. Devil breaks a leg; people from a place that "friends" made hostile to me years ago, had a (club) meeting there. Those "friends" who even now still tail/hound me, follow me and cause me trouble. While most of them were absent, a very angry bitch was there and recognized me and no, she had to ruin my evening, without me even casting a glimpse on her!!! She even used other people to come bug and pester me, while i was peacefully having a drink, one of them was even trying to taunt me into a fight (was dropping cigarette ash on me and my stuff, while crap-talking at me)! Another one was exhibiting provocatively before me sensual stuff with his GF, like exchanging french kiss and spitting their drink from one's mouth to the other one's, double freaking out for me! Because gross and because, girls either refuse me a french kiss altogether, or give me a cold, passionless one, without feeling and i was jealous... One way or another, even if i had the best intentions and i was planning to ignore the motherfuckers (even when i noticed their presence there), they managed the impossible for my current state... To send me in the sphere of negative feelings, again, after lots of time of immovable tranquility and happiness!
Second, i tried to change for the better, even after this shit. I had an epiphany and decided to not exploit that university student i discovered recently after all and instead, try hitting on a normal girl and go for normal relationship... Night was full of people celebrating, lots of girls, merry atmosphere, most were tipsy. My hitting on attempt, though, went straight to hell! It was the exact same style i used before and it worked perfectly, the girl back then responded well and even started hugging me out of the blue, but then, an idiot from nowhere kicked in uninvited, started yelling and he made her leave me... This time no idiot appeared, but the girl didn't like my style. Unlucky as hell. Whenever i succeed, others meddle and force me to drop Sisyphus' rock back down, loosing everything and starting anew! And whenever i don't succeed, i remember the times i succeeded and others wasted mercilessly and i get sad!
Well, fuck everything and everyone! I want to be good, i try to be good and every single time without fail, they are fucking me, unprovoked and uncalled for, at that! I didn't ask anyone to help me, just to not interfere, meddle and ruin my shit! Nevermind. At least i got my salary. I can't buy or otherwise acquire hearts, souls, feelings, but i bet i can buy everything else and get a "thank you sir", in response! When i go to hell, i will proudly shout; "THEY made me the monster i got to be"!
First, i decided to go somewhere and have fun. Devil breaks a leg; people from a place that "friends" made hostile to me years ago, had a (club) meeting there. Those "friends" who even now still tail/hound me, follow me and cause me trouble. While most of them were absent, a very angry bitch was there and recognized me and no, she had to ruin my evening, without me even casting a glimpse on her!!! She even used other people to come bug and pester me, while i was peacefully having a drink, one of them was even trying to taunt me into a fight (was dropping cigarette ash on me and my stuff, while crap-talking at me)! Another one was exhibiting provocatively before me sensual stuff with his GF, like exchanging french kiss and spitting their drink from one's mouth to the other one's, double freaking out for me! Because gross and because, girls either refuse me a french kiss altogether, or give me a cold, passionless one, without feeling and i was jealous... One way or another, even if i had the best intentions and i was planning to ignore the motherfuckers (even when i noticed their presence there), they managed the impossible for my current state... To send me in the sphere of negative feelings, again, after lots of time of immovable tranquility and happiness!
Second, i tried to change for the better, even after this shit. I had an epiphany and decided to not exploit that university student i discovered recently after all and instead, try hitting on a normal girl and go for normal relationship... Night was full of people celebrating, lots of girls, merry atmosphere, most were tipsy. My hitting on attempt, though, went straight to hell! It was the exact same style i used before and it worked perfectly, the girl back then responded well and even started hugging me out of the blue, but then, an idiot from nowhere kicked in uninvited, started yelling and he made her leave me... This time no idiot appeared, but the girl didn't like my style. Unlucky as hell. Whenever i succeed, others meddle and force me to drop Sisyphus' rock back down, loosing everything and starting anew! And whenever i don't succeed, i remember the times i succeeded and others wasted mercilessly and i get sad!
Well, fuck everything and everyone! I want to be good, i try to be good and every single time without fail, they are fucking me, unprovoked and uncalled for, at that! I didn't ask anyone to help me, just to not interfere, meddle and ruin my shit! Nevermind. At least i got my salary. I can't buy or otherwise acquire hearts, souls, feelings, but i bet i can buy everything else and get a "thank you sir", in response! When i go to hell, i will proudly shout; "THEY made me the monster i got to be"!
Post edited February 26, 2017 by KiNgBrAdLeY7
