It's been two weeks of pure hell for me.
Just came in to vent how bad I feel, the government in Holland is planning to re-examine people who live on a benefit for being handicapped from a young age (WA-Jong).
I hope everything works out for you.
In truth, my situation isn't that bad. It's not great, but it could be worse. I had a frank discussion with that nurse on Thursday, and it helped me make sense with things. Dying from a heart attack at 27 might have been a good outcome, in the sense that I could have had a stroke, fell, cracked my head, and ended up permanently disabled for the rest of my life. But I caught it before it reached that point. When death may have been a positive outcome, it makes you think a little.
You're disabled? That's another thing of mine...People say I should get on some form of disability; between my knee, blood pressure, depression, and general injuries. But I'm resistant to that idea. It's hard to say why, but I feel that's funding that deserves to go to people who have no other choice, you know? Be it from being born with an issue, to some catastrophic event, they need that funding. Myself, yeah, I have the body of a broken down middle aged man (or older) but I don't feel like I'm at that level, and I feel like I'd be cheating the system if I tried.
But then realistically, what else am I supposed to do? No one will hire me with these injuries, and if I push myself too far as I know I have the habit of doing, I just end up worse off.